The sex with Victor was even better than before. It was just more emotional. I don’t know if he thought I might not make it at the time. We actually had sex again during radiation, when my breast was all red and I had black marker written all over my chest. He was just genuinely attracted to me. Still, I didn’t consider him boyfriend material and I wasn’t even really aroused. It was more like, just please make me feel like a human being for this period of time and make my body feel sexy again. I was just trying to survive.